I feel lost, betrayed and a bit pathetic to be honest.
I took a sneaky look at his phone again last night (I know, I shouldn’t be doing), and there’s photos being exchanged, him telling her how hot she is, that he enjoyed spending time with her half naked…so I think its pretty clear that emotionally, he’s cheated.
A quote that’s always stuck with me is along the lines of “If you fall in love with two people, always choose the second, because if you truly loved the first, you’d never have fallen again”- Bob Marley. I always thought that was a really clever way to look at it, but now it’s heartwrenching.
I have no idea how to approach this subject now with him though…I’ve tried the whole “maybe it’s not meant to work out”, “If you have feelings for someone else I’d rather you just be honest about it” and he’s just denied it each time. Do I just come straight out with it? That I’ve seen the pictures and the conversation? That implies that I don’t trust him, which I did until last night when I saw these bits.
I feel pathetic that I don’t have the balls to simply end things and put myself first for once. It could either be great, in that he’ll realise what a good thing he’s lost, or the worse thing imaginable and he’ll get together with her and settle down, and I’ll never find a man like him ♡
I don’t know…